is the last day of school.
and today i got my first newspaper staff assignment. which really freaked me out.
but whatever,ive gotta do it.
AND today i got way to much attention. and it made me feel weird.
i get uncomfortable when people touch me a lot and tell me im cute and beautiful.
well yeah,that happened alot. and i found out that a complete wangsterrr has been eyeing my ass all year. kind of flattering, but kinda weird. so i wrote him an ODE. i'll put it up sometime so i can hear about how i suck at rhyming.
and allison and mary and claire told me that somebody said i was cute. which was really nice cause mr.10 didnt show at the party and i ended up not caring because:i got told i was cute by a cute boy who i desperately offended but he forgave me which is cool, i grinded with a really tall guy from BA, i threw away a ciggarrette because i knew i shouldnt smoke it,i got a long with someones bitchy mama, and managed to avoid any sort of contact with the hostesses creepy dad.
and now im embracing how my friendships shift every year.
and i just read the most heart breaking and inspiring thing about survivors of sexual abuse. made me cry.
aghhhhhhhh ive got a lot to say. maybe i'll write some songs. its cause my dad wont let me talk to him. like he just wont listen to me. which means that hes got something to say that he wont say and thats scary.
fuck, i need a boyfriend to keep maaaah mind off of stoopid shit.

today,
im rambling like crazy and have been terribly incoherent all week. and im doing a great job of distancing myself from douchebag boys who hurt my feelings.
OH! one of my brothers friends called me a" hormonal, pregnant bitch". im not pregnant! its fucked up comments like that that make me so fucking insecure about my fucking belly and im sick of it. fuck it.
hi kelsey, stop rambling.
being insecure about things is fucking stupid. get over it missy.
hi i talk to myself.